The Unrest

Welcome to the

Unrest,

to true

selfless motherhood,

to Love for another that's

REAL.

Welcome to the

Unrest,

where your heart

walks around

outside your body,

and your preoccupation

does not begin with

'me', 'myself' or 'I'.

Welcome to the

Unrest,

to abandoning your

excuses,

to sacrificing everything,

to giving it

ALL.

Welcome to the

Unrest,

where the rewards are

greater than you

ever imagined,

and the chance you have

to touch the world,

is the chance

YOU TAKE.

Call Me Love

Call me

Love,

for that's all I

am,

all I

know,

all I

see.

Call me

Love,

change my

name,

because I

can't escape it,

nothing can

break it.

Call me

Love,

for that's all

that matters,

all anyone

wants,

all I have

to give.

Call me

Love.

Untitled Nightmare

It's dark and
haunting,
ripping through
the peace.
The shells of colors
stand as ghosts:
whithered
and dead,
having bled to death
in the saturation
of destruction.

Open up.
Light floods the
scene of
smoking wreckage and
shatter pieces of
what
was.

Ready or Not

There is so much

LIFE

in beginnings,

so much

POTENTIAL;

if it can be

IMAGINED,

then it can

BE.

I sit and stare

at this new beginning,

and a

MILLION THOUGHTS

flood my mind.

Thoughts of you,

thoughts of me,

thoughts of God,

thoughts of color,

thoughts of friendships,

thoughts of adventure,

thoughts of risks,

thoughts of growth,

thoughts of challenges.

Dear Next Ten Months Of My Life:

ready or not,

HERE

I

COME.

Please Will You Hurry Up

Have I mentioned to you

lately

how completely and utterly

DISTRACTING

you are?!

You have infiltrated

my thoughts

and I can't seem

to remove your

name and face

from the very front

of my mind.

You have got me thinking

all sorts

of things,

and have disrupted my

get-through-the-day attitude;

every thought of you

is punctuated with a

smile.

Dear My Life:

please will you

HURRY UP.

Whispers of Love

Breathe, Darling;

don't take your eyes off Me.

My love is

enough.

Choose trust,

Sweet One,

choose rest;

everything is

already

taken care of.

Smile, My Beauty;

I delight in you.

Nothing makes Me happier

than calling you

My own.

Hold still,

My Love;

I will wrap
My arms around you,

give you strength

give you hope

give you reasons

NOT to give up.

Obey Me,

Precious Child;

I want and know

what's best.

Let it go,

and be infinitely blessed.

You're Mine.

Don't Be Angry, My Dear

I am only motivated

by love,

My Dear;

it is only because

I CARE.

Nothing you

do or say

will alter that,

will take it away,

will change my mind.

My love for you is

unconditional,

you see.

So,

My Dear,

don't be angry

with me

for simply wanting for you

what's best;

it only makes me

want it

MORE.

Such A Time As This

In sheer faith,

I fell on my face,

praying for you

all night long.

I wept

and begged

and poured out my heart

through the watches

of the night.

I have risen

to my feet again,

head held high,

FEARLESS.

I am ready to do

whatever

deliverance demands;

I have come to my position

for such a time as this.

My Love

You have a lot

to lose,

My Love.

Please don't take

the risk.

I would absolutely

hate to see

your life after it

self-destructs.

You have a lot

to lose,

My Love.

You may think

I'm farther away

but I'm not

- I remain at your side -

it's you who's

turning away;

and both of us that

changed - every single day.

You have a lot

to lose,

My Love.

But if you choose

not to fight this,

and succumb to

your own destruction,

then I've lost you already

- which is too bad because

you will

ALWAYS

have my heart.

Opposites

I guess I just

forgot

that we are

opposites.

That wasn't the answer

I wanted -

but it was very

YOU.

Sometimes our balance

is very comforting;

sometimes,

not so much.

But I don't

CLASH

like you do

[of course not -

I am your opposite],

I simply

BREAK

against whoever I have

collided with,

and change to

meet their needs.

But when it's

ME

with the need,

I can't really

compromise.

Distraction

The numbers on the clock

burn into me;

I haven't heard

a word.

I sigh and tell myself

a million little stories

to excuse the weighty

absence.

The pain in my body

is a constant ache,

with sharp turns

every now and again.

But the distraction I seek

does not seek me,

so what else can

be said for it?

The Way I Planned

When I think of

you

the time passes far more

s l o w l y.

I don't know.

I don't know.

I don't know.

Nothing I ever

plan on

ever turns out

the way I planned.

Car Wreck

I couldn't comprehend -

shards of thoughts -

jerking motion -

crunching crumble -

chunks of plastic -

pain.

This isn't happening.

Trapped -

doors won't open -

crawling out the window -

can't think straight -

frantic phone calls -

911.

This can't be right.

Red and blue lights -

tears and shaking -

horror -

lost little girl [oh wait, I'm a grown up?] -

men with badges and clipboards -

sweltering, dripping heat.

This isn't real.

Deafening noise -

please just hold me -

goggling passersby -

adrenaline and fear -

pretending to be fine -

hugging strangers.

This can't be me.

Worry

There is no certainty

like uncertainty.

The 100% expectation

of the unexpected

is an undeniable commitment

to the debatably noncommittal:

the simple complications.

Worry is a tangle of

STATIC

in your brain.

My Name is Strength

I will hide my face

no longer,

for MY name is

STRENGTH.

I will not be

overcome with fear,

for MY essence is

LOVE.

I cannot breathe

doubts and questions,

for MY breath is

COURAGE.

I will not linger

where the sun doesn't shine,

for MY shadow is

RESTORATION.

This is who I am.

This is what I am called.

I am powerful.

I am made beautiful.

I have been chosen.

I am loved.

I will hide my face

no longer,

for MY name is

STRENGTH.

Your Anger

I am left

QUAKING

in the face of your

anger.

My hands are shaking

- I can't hold a pen,

I can't even write -

and my stomach is rolled up

with fear.

I beg you not to

hurt me,

not to

crush me.

You're the only one

who can.

Please don't!

Have mercy!

I have little value

when I have been

shattered.

I'd like to

remind you

that my heart is

yours alone

to break.

So please don't use

such angry words.

I'm fragile.

My heart cracked a little -

did you see?

You have enough of me

to rip me to

SHREDS

in ten seconds flat.

I don't stay angry

but a second.

However, I could stay

sad

hurt

lonely,

for a very long time.

Refusal

I refuse to let my life

come crashing down

around me,

simply because the

color of the sky,

the temperature of the sun,

and the cycle of the moon

just changed.

I retreated to the place

I always go to

HIDE,

and I find I

can't cry.

I'm not sure if

I'm okay,

but I know

-someday-

I will be.

Upside-Down

My world

so recently right-side-up

is upside-down,

again.

With my feet glued to the now-ceiling,

the blood rushes

to my head;

I try not to think,

try not to scream.

I don't understand,

yet it makes

perfect sense.

My heart is pumping as

emotions are changing.

With growing horror

I wonder:

If I close my eyes

and let myself

FALL

in this upside-down world,

do I fall down,

or fall up?