Lack of Comprehension

This was not
the plan;
not what I had
in mind.
Why is it happening?
I don't understand -
what
is going on?
There are dots
- somewhere -
that I can't
connect....

It is so wretched
to be human,
sometimes.
I am so limited.
And I still
dont
get
it.
Why this?
Why now?

I sigh.